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Tuesday, June 27, 2006
I can't believe that I was a Christian>
Some people just lack of general knowledge, like being not aware that ASEAN is not ASIA, and China is a part of Asia. I forgive their ignorance, because we have this saying that "ignorance is a bliss". In my opinion, (sincere appology to all my singaporean friends) many Singaporeans have poor geographic knowledge. They merely know about places other than Southeast Asia. They may know about China, a big village, with no electricity, and all the people there are peasants. WHAT? they have GUCCI in China? are you kidding me? I feel sad and angry at the same time, this is strange. Singaporeans are infamous for their poor flexibility. However, being handicapped in geography doesn't constrain their mobility. Unfortunately being physically mobile doen't help to grow their mind mobility, thus many still can't think wide and far.
To balance this entry, I should praise all those successful Singaporeans as well. They are great people who can think far. Their contribution to Singapore's economy is distinguished...blah blah blah.
In fact this entry is for fun only. I wrote the first paragraph a few days ago, I was angry at that time, since I encountered some unpleasant people who don't know that they are stupid. After a few days, which is today, I no longer detest stupid people that much, and I was asking myself why I chose this title.
Thursday, June 15, 2006
When I was 14>
On the way back from guy's place, I was thinking about lots of things, the conversation we had there was disorgnized, like their house which is in a terrible mess. I was surprised by certain things they said, their comments on certain people, their opinions and reaction. When I was 14, I didn't talk about all these, I indulged myself in own interests, I can select friends and reject others easily and freely. That was when I was 14, but I'm no longer 14.
When I got off the train, the sky was already dark, people on the street with "going home" written on their faces. They were in hurry, and I was supposed to be. After calling her, I stopped in front of Mcdonald's for some time, she sounded angry and changed her plan to pick me up. I didn't feel like going home at that moment, the moment I feel like going somewhere else, and everything went back to the year when I was 14. That is a mysterious year, the most puzzling year in my life, the most memorable. When I was 14, I was waiting for someone to take me away, to a place I'd never been to, to live a life I'd never imagined. The someone could be anyone who loves me, could be a stranger on street who's willing to take me away. This feeling was so strong last night when I was standing in front of Mcdonald's. I saw read and yellow, red was like fire and yellow was like desire.
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
Secure>
Recenty I've met lots of old friends, I feel secure and happy when friends are around. Things are getting better these days, and I'm no longer feeling so lost and insecure. It seems everything is under control, more confident and positive, however I'm worried about baby, I hope baby can find a pair of nice shoes and be happy.
Friday, June 02, 2006
Non- Mainstream>
The other day I saw this word-"non-mainstream" on newspaper, thought of the chinese translation, I laughed. No doubt, this is a funny word. There are other funny words, such as ADULT, EDUCATION, ENGINEERING, DEMOCRATIC,FREEDOM, MAGIC, PROFOUND, LV, CITY,HOLY SHIT, BLOODY HELL,BRA,INFLUENCE, BRAND, CLASS, VISA, ORGASM, FOREVER etc.
What does non-mainstream mean? Only the opposite of mainstream? Or sometimes it means outstanding, special, cool, abnormal, anomalous, atypical, deviant, deviating, different, errant, freakish, irregular, mental, nonstandard, odd, peculiar, psycho, strange, unconventional, unrepresentative, untypical, unusual,weird, abnormal? Well, non-mainstream is meaningful.
Baby wrote in her recent entry saying that both of us are trying to fit into this so called MAINSTREAM society, yet sometimes we just can't adapt, we can't always follow the majority. It may not be a problem for me, because I don't usually feel lost if I'm different from others, it's like everyone listens to pop music, but I still stick to Rock music, everyone has a SWATCH , but I think it's not a worthy bargain.
It's very strange that people usually describe me within few words, such as : "Vivian is a friend I will never forget", "Vivian is a girl with determination", "A genius", "A gal called Vivian", "Vivian, my ex classmate", "Vivian"... Compared with description of others, mine is highly summarised, not that "short and sweet", but succinct, hasty and dry. Well, it's because I fell into this non-mainstream type, I'm so non-mainstream, so that people don't really can get near to me, or to understand me, or those who understand have no idea how to describe a person like me. I'd rather being described as: "Vivian, the gal I often shop with", " Vivian, the gal who cooks well and I love her food","Vivian,who is willing to listen all my craps and complaints"...What I mean here is I'd rather interacting with people than existing as an individual. Technically speaking, everyone is an individual, but I mean I seek more interation, I wish my friends remember me not as what I am, but as what I have done with them.