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Wednesday, May 25, 2005
The end justifies the mean>
Mess
Firstly, my feeling to dear Astro club.After SYF,I don't feel I'm belong to the club anymore, I'm not involving in various activities, partly because I haven't attended several meetings and didn't contribute much.In fact I feel quite sad, being so distant to those astro friends now.
Secondly is my post chicken pox studying period.Lots of work need to be catched up.This week is full occupied, CO practice everyday and sports carnival stuff...I dislike to be busy.
And,my baby's having chicken pox too.She got it from me, which makes me feel guilty. I hate that I don't have time to spend with her these days.And even been accused by others of being selfish.
Suddenly I feel she's so far away from me, very cold tone on the phone.I understand she's suffering, the pain is unbearable and so on. I also understand she needs someone to take care of her,buying lunch or dinner...But I couldn't do for her! Even felt I was able to carry on this relationship.
Feeling: very very very bad.
Delight
Watched Star War III with baby last Friday,had a good time.
Monday, May 16, 2005
Recovering>
I've been having chicken pox for more than one week, they are gradually disappearing now,so glad that I'm gonna go back to school, going back to my dear orchestra.(: and my sport carnival won't turn to be a spot carnival.It seems most of the things are on the right track, thank god.
Evelyn put her pictures with the new bf on her blog, I was quite surprised,she's changed a lot, to god's will. She keeps being faithful all the time, for her, god is all.And I never intend to reflect what I've done wrongly,including my sexuality,this love comes out naturally.I just don't ask god whether it is inappropriate.But still, he is the father in my heart.
I always have lots of complaints about hostel life,I want to be free.
Saturday, May 14, 2005
key to my heart>
The Keys to Your Heart
You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.
In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.
You'd like your lover to think you are flexible and ready for anything!
You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.
Your risk of cheating is low. Even if you're tempted, you'd try hard not to do it.
You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore.
In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.
Friday, May 06, 2005
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SYF came to the end,we achieved Gold w/o honours,many members cried after heard the results.Others may think it's good enough to get Gold,but obviously we were seeking something else,a Gold with honours, not only a Gold.It was disappointed.
After SYF, I thought I could quickly go back to the study mood,unexpectedly I am sick again. High fever with a severe headache.I was heaty,lots of red spot came out from my face and back.Going to see doctor later,hope it's not Dengi fever, and it's not rashes like the one I got two years ago.I need to be healthy! :(
Was quite sad yesterday, because I couldn't save a dying doggie in the canal, how I wish to save the poor little thing!